Sometimes I fall into a downward spiral. I feel hopeless, pessimistic, ugly, panicked, depressed, and so on. (Geez, sharing these things on the world wide web where they will potentially live on forever is quite a scary thing…just putting that out there.) This morning I chose to go for a run. I used to run all the time. I used to be obsessive about it to the point where it became unhealthy – that’s a habit I have with everything – diet, work, relationships… Anyway, after about a week of going downhill, I am so grateful for this rush of endorphins. I feel powerful again, in a way that I forgot. When I run I like to think about the toxins sweating out of me. I like to think I am creating movement in my body to release these things and get one step closer to balance.
This is just a friendly, healthy reminder. When I fall into these downward spirals I lose all inspiration. It’s an effort just to get out of bed. But if I can just get myself to put on running shoes, to get a good episode of This American Life on my iPod, and to get out the door, things will shift. I’ve never come back from a run and regretted it.
Anyway, I’m late for work – and yet, not super concerned – but I should get my day started. Hope someone reads this and takes my advice. If not a run, then a walk (or maybe a skip and a cartwheel). Just do it and trust.
Intention: To lift my spirits by feeding myself healthy thoughts and foods.
Affirmation: I am healing every day.