These last few days I’ve been relaxing, just enjoying life, not worrying about my diet like crazy – in fact I’ve eaten things I would NEVER have before. I just let go. I gave myself permission to do this and I didn’t punish myself. And…my skin is looking much better. Proof that my anxiety has a huge toll on my skin. Sure, physical things like diet, sleep and exercise make a difference – but the biggest improvement always comes from just relaxing. Managing my stress and enjoying life.
I listened to a lot of Eckart Tolle yesterday and I am realizing it’s imperative that I learn to take quiet time and be more present. Right now these distractions are possible because it’s a holiday and I don’t have to work. But when the time comes when I must be present, when there is an issue at work or I have to accomplish a lot in a small amount of time, I need to prepare myself to be totally present and at ease.
Eckart’s whole strategy is when you find your mind wandering and the anxiety creeping in, it’s only because you are not being fully present. Just allow yourself to be aware of these thoughts, recognize that they exist but that they are not you, and bring yourself back into the present moment because “in the now” no problem can possibly exist.
So, plan B. I thought I could just “be more present” in my life, but now I think I need to kind of schedule it. Now, I don’t want to create any rules the way I always do, but I am aiming to get at least 10 minutes a day of being fully present. Every day. I can fit this in whenever.
And in general, I am just going to pay attention to my thoughts and notice when the anxiety comes in. It’s true that it is always about something I am worried about in the future (or sometimes the past) and never the present moment. If I’m not living for the present moment, I am not living.
Intention: To become aware of thoughts that do not serve me, and to live right now, in the present. This is my Christmas gift to myself.
Affirmation: I have the power to heal myself.